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These Are My Confessions.

Mason is here everyone! He is officially three weeks old now, sooo, this means I am officially a seasoned mom of two, right? Not so much. We are still getting the hang of the things around here. Life with two for sure throws a little curve ball but it’s nothing you can’t handle. At least that’s what I tell myself.

First of all:

Meet Mason:

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Born at 6 pounds and 19 inches of pure sugar, this little guy for sure brightens our world.

Here are my confessions as a brand new ( second time) mom:

“Sleep when the baby sleeps” no longer pertains to my life. When people tell me to try and sleep when the baby sleeps, I laugh a little because there is so much less sleep with a toddler and a newborn. My first born, Jacob, has been thrown into a complete sleep regression and is waking up in the middle of the night and is WIDE awake at or before 5 AM ( We are working on that).

Our house has become a disaster area. While i’m feeding Mason, Jacob, plays carelessly with all of his toys. He brings toy after toy out and plays like it’s the first time he has seen it. I am lucky that Jacob can occupy himself and play for HOURS but the house becomes a wreck in about 2 minutes.

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The anxiety has been worse for me this time around. For some reason, the first week we were home with Mason, I was a huge ball of nerves. It’s like I thought I was going to break him or something. We survived. Each week has gotten better with the anxiety and we are only on week three.

The pressure to nurse is so strong. I nursed for a few days and pumped for a few weeks but now we are purely on formula. I truly believe that fed is best. I am PRO breast feeding and PRO formula feeding. It’s what’s best for your family. What I don’t like is when people ask you tons of questions about why or why you aren’t nursing or when people judge you either way! Women should feel comfortable nursing OR bottle feeding in public without being judged, especially by other moms.

I haven’t left the house since Mason was born but only a handful of times. It doesn’t help that the weather is so cold right now, it feels like antarctica outside but also the thought of going out with my two boys alone is so daunting. We will get there but for now I am staying in my fuzzy christmas socks and maternity leggings until it gets a tad warmer.

Speaking of maternity pants, lets talk baby weight. I am one of the lucky ones that fat likes to stick to me when I am pregnant. It’s going to take some time, but I will get this baby weight off. I like doing Weight Watchers because it holds me accountable. I’ve already started tracking points and working on figuring out the new “freestyle” plan. Weight Watchers is good for me because it helps with portion control also. I can’t wait to start working out after I get approved by Doc at my six week appointment. I want to start by walking and doing a mixture of the beach body workouts.

I could go on and on with my confessions but here is some advice especially if you are a new mom or a new mom of two:

-Take care of yourself- take that long shower, drink the glass of wine, eat the piece of chocolate. Those first few weeks and months of motherhood you are purely in survival mode.

– Its OKAY if your first born watches some TV. Sometimes TV is the only way I can get a second to do something. No it’s not a babysitter but if it distracts my toddler for 3 minutes, i’ll take it!

– Give your first born a few more hugs, snuggles and a little more patience. They are going through a lot too.

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– Love on your partner. If you are as lucky as me and you have someone who is there by your side every step of the way, a simple thank you and I love you goes a long way.

One more confession, while my new life with a toddler and newborn may be really hard right now, I wouldn’t change a thing. The love I have for these two boys of mine outweigh any diaper blow outs or toddler temper tantrums. Seeing them together melts my heart.

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XOXO,

May 3, 2014-One of the Best Days Ever.

Two years ago, May 3, 2014, was a very special day. It was a perfect day in my eyes. The sun was shining, it was warm outside and just a beautiful day in general. It was Brian and I’s wedding day. A day I will never forget, we were surrounded by the people who we love the most. Disclaimer: I’m about to get real sappy on y’all. I can’t help it, i’m sentimental, it’s just who I am!

Two years have gone by as fast as a blink of an eye. There have been new beginnings, memories made, dear love ones lost and a sweet baby boy was born. A lot has happened in the past two years but I can say one thing for sure, my love for Brian has only gotten stronger. There have been times that have tested us and times that have made us laugh so hard that we’ve cried. With every day that goes by, it only gets better knowing that I have my love, my rock, my best friend by my side. Happy anniversary, Brian. Here’s to us and many more years of pure joy.

Let’s take a look back to one of the best days ever:

( Photography by Brooke Christl Photography. She is simply the best, so check her out!)

Here’s to all the mamas!

Mother’s Day is right around the corner! This will be my very first Mother’s Day being a Mom myself. Being Jacob’s Mama has been one of the best gifts that God has given me. He has tested my patience, filled my heart with so much love and made me learn a lot more about myself. I never fully realized how much my mom loved me until the day I met Jacob.

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Mother’s Day is a great time to show a Mom in your life how much she means to you and celebrate the person she is. Here are some gift ideas to make her feel special:

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Photo Album: Am I still the only one who collects actual photos still? Shutterfly makes it way too easy with their promotions of free 4×6 prints. I’ve accumulated hundreds of photos that need to go in albums. One of my favorite things to do is go through old photos and look back at great memories.

Bath Products: I love taking a nice hot bath to relax after a long day. This is a great gift for moms who love to soak in the tub!

Candles: I always have candles burning in our home. Different scents can help you feel relaxed and make you feel at ease. The candles from Aveda will make your home smell like a spa. Who wouldn’t want that?!

Coffee Mug: Each morning when I wake up I look forward to having my cup of joe. You could call it mama fuel because I know a lot of moms who run off their daily coffee fix.

Birthstone Eternity Ring: I have an alexandrite eternity ring in honor of my son who was born in the month of June. It’s one of my favorite pieces that I wear every single day!

A Manicure: Because who doesn’t love to be pampered and get their nails done?

Monogram: Anything monogram is always a great gift. Necklace, earrings, bags, shirts, anything monogrammed.

Her Favorite Perfume: A scent can bring back a memory or make you think of your favorite person. Whenever I smell the perfume “Angel” on someone I immediately think of my mom. I personally love the smell by Marc Jacobs, “Daisy”.

Flowers: I love having fresh flowers in my home and my favorite flower is the hydrangea. We used these in our wedding so they have sentimental value ( hint hint Brian).

Wine: I vote champagne.

Fun T-shirt: I have seen this “Mama Bear” shirt all over pintrest and I just think its too cute!

Earrings: Pearl earrings are classic and I love the idea of having a pair of earrings to remind me of a special day.

When picking out a gift for that special mom in your life, remember that it’s truly the thought that counts.

Four Letter Word- #!?$

Fear can completely cripple you, deprive you of happiness, and keep you from going after your hopes and dreams. Not only that, but did you know that fear can make you physically sick?

Each time you feel fear, it triggers something called the “fight-or-flight” stress response in your body. If there is a cumulative buildup of the stress hormone, it can lead to disorders in our automatic nervous system. This can cause IBS, headaches, high blood pressure, etc. I don’t know about you but this makes me afraid of fear! How is that even possible?

The time that I feel the most fearful is at night, right before I fall asleep. Sometimes I can lay there and the thoughts of my deepest fears creep to the surface. It’s not the darkness that causes this fear, it’s the silence of the night. When I start to worry and let the fear come in, that’s when I start praying. I pray that my husband comes home safely after his shift, I pray for my son, I pray for my family members and friends, I pray for peace. If all else fails, I turn on Nick at Night and watch episodes of Full House, Friends and Fresh Prince of Bel Air until I drift off into sleep.

I like to call fear a four letter word because I tend to make situations ten times worse in my mind because of it. I can get myself all in a tizzy worrying about things that are out of my control. What I’ve realized is that most of the time you just have to let go and let God take care of you. Let your faith carry you.

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Happy Monday Y’all!

xoxo,

Lauren

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