Love

Not just the cover…

I’ve heard people judge a person within 15 seconds. Think about it… when you look at someone, do you think you can sum a person up by just a quick look? In my head, I know people can’t but they do. I’m guilty of it myself.

As you probably know, within the last year I have lost almost 65 pounds.  I have noticed an incredible difference in the way people treat me. People open more doors, smile a little more at me and start more conversations. It somewhat strange to me and  has got me to thinking….How do I treat people?  We all judge people simply by their appearance but really, we could be missing out on some of the coolest people just by their looks. It takes a conscious effort to not judge a book by the cover.  Sometimes we should take a look inside the actual book….

Who cares if someone has an extra 50 pounds on them? Maybe they are working on it…Maybe they have already lost some weight. Who cares if someone isn’t wearing a designer handbag? Maybe they chose to spend their money elsewhere. Who cares if someone doesn’t drive an amazing car? My point is………….in the end, does it all really matter???

Just something i’ve been thinking about…

Jessica & Deric Wedding: MY point of view!

“ Goinnn to the chapel and we’re gonnaa get marrriied” was playing in my head the entire weekend. I love that song for some reason. Anyways….this past weekend was my very first experience being a bridesmaid. My incredible friend Jessica Lynn Sherman made a beautiful bride. I have never seen her look so happy. Pure bliss would describe it.

The weekend began with the rehearsal of the ceremony and then the rehearsal dinner. I left Greensboro at about 3:30, taking my sweet time, getting my starbucks and assuming that I’d make it to Monroe, NC about 5:15 or so. I would have just enough time to stop by the hotel, change into my rehearsal dress and be at the chapel by 6. WRONG. It’s 5:30…….I’m still sitting in Charlotte5 o’clock traffic. Heart pounding, hands gripping on the wheel, I veer off to a gas station and run inside to the disgusting tiny bathroom. I squeeze into my dress, put on my heels and then press on towards Monroe. I was praying that I make it there by 6. Terrified that I’m going to ruin the whole rehearsal, I make it there by 6:15. I was practically running up to the doors when…WHEW..i’m not the only one late. The Matron of Honor was pulling up at the same time…..

We walk around the entire building and cannot find where the wedding party is. Finally we spot them and walk inside the double wooden doors. It was a gorgeous chapel.  Being it my first bridesmaid experience, I wasn’t really sure what to expect. Practicing the slow walk down the isle several times, figuring out where to stand, walking with my escort, etc….it was all over in the blink of an eye…on to the rehearsal dinner…

We were all so hungry. My stomach was about to “implode” as I like to say. We went to a barbecue place called Big Bob’s Barbecue something or another. That restaurant was in all honesty the best barbecue I’ve ever had. Christina (My best friend who was also a bridesmaid) and I decided to split different sides. They were all my favorites…Marconi and cheese, onion rings, baked beans and mixed veggies. After all that mouth-watering cookin, I was thinking “how I could possibly fit dessert into my belly?!?!” Wasn’t a problem once I saw that chocolate pie……

5 pounds heavier and feeling like I had a “food baby” in my stomach….Christina, JayJay ( Christina’s finance Jason) and I headed over to target for Christina to get some jewelry for the wedding. While they glance at the jewelry, I headed straight to the isle with the Pepto Bismal. My stomach is NOT used to that amount of food! It was well worth it though. After that…Back to the hotel for a good night’s rest we went…We ladies needed our beauty rest…

Waking up completely stuffed still from dinner, I am bound and determined to find the perfect girdle to flatten my belly for my dress. We spent our morning searching and we found the perfect one at Belk. Thank god for Girdles!!!!  I learned my lesson about eating too much the night before being in a wedding…

The afternoon before the wedding was spent getting ready. In an effort to reduce cost, Christina and I planned on doing our own hair. After a tiny freak out session on both of our parts, thinking our hair just looked hideous ..we finally got our hair lookin good! 

We head to the chapel to meet Jess to do our make up together and spend time with our bride before the big ceremony. I was expecting Jess to be all Frazzled or Shannazled as she likes to say….But she was calm. It was almost like she was in the eye of the storm. Everything was going on around her but she was calm and ready. She was glowing and I felt honored to be a part of her special day.

There were a few things that were in the back of my mind before the actual ceremony. Like…Am I sweating too much? Will I trip down the isle? Will I start crying uncontrollably during the wedding? These concerns were minor compared to the major thing that I had been worrying about the days and week leading up to the wedding…. A secret that I had been hiding from Jess…..

You see.. all of the bridesmaids had to get their shoe’s dyed the color of their dress so it would match perfectly. I decided to get my shoes dyed at Payless for convenience. For future reference, “Oasis Blue” and Jade DO NOT match.  My shoes did not match my dress. I was so worried about what Jess would think so I didn’t tell her. She asked me several times before the big day to see the shoes; I didn’t look her in the eye and lied through my teeth about where they were. Even the day of the wedding, I was in the clear. I took short little steps so she wouldn’t notice the shoes…..and she didn’t….I didn’t want her to have any worries on her special day…

The actual ceremony itself was incredible and sweet. The whole thing went very smoothly (No tripping bridesmaids or uncontrollable crying). I felt so happy for Jessica and Deric when they said their vows. Seeing Deric look at Jessica so deeply in love really moved me to have tears swell up in my eyes. When the preacher started reading 1 Corinthians 13, “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.”   it made me hope that someday I find love…which I know I will!

Now Jessica and Deric are the Stewart’s and they are on their honeymoon. They are beginning their lives together and I know they will be insanely happy. I am so happy for them both and cannot wait to see what the future holds for them.

Memories……

Sometimes in life we all get down and discouraged from our day to day routine. Bad hair day, spilled coffee on my favorite dress, alarm didn’t go off, forgot to return the movie at the Redbox machine, wore my shirt inside out for half of the day…..These are just a few little things that could add up to ruin my great day…if I let them…

One thing that helps to not let these types of situations spoil my day is to think of good memories and remember that there are still good times to be had! Instead of remembering my failures and my disappointments, I try and remember everything that I have accomplished and my great memories.

There are certain days, certain memories that I like to replay over in my head, may be just a random day with a friend or a huge accomplishment…either way they make me smile. Here are just a few:

  • The day I got my letter of acceptance into college (It was a miracle from god that I got in!).
  • The day I got my puppy—Anna Belle.
  • Driving around with Christina in Cullowhee singing “Girlfriend” by Avril Lavigne at the top of our lungs.
  • Sunset at the Santa Monica Pier with my Seth…
  • The day I hit 50 pounds lost on the scale (Literally jumping for joy).
  • Learning how to make homemade pesto with Dad…
  • Dancing with mom (That woman can dance!—Cupid Shuffle is her favorite).
  • Spring Break 2004…From what I remember (just kidding Mom!).
  • EVERY single beach trip with my family at Ocean Isle…
  • Singing Karaoke with Natalie (first time ever singing karaoke).
  • Shooting a shotgun with my little brother, Kyle…
  • Learning to play Roulette in Vegas.

Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.  ~ The Wonder Years

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