Life

These Are My Confessions.

Mason is here everyone! He is officially three weeks old now, sooo, this means I am officially a seasoned mom of two, right? Not so much. We are still getting the hang of the things around here. Life with two for sure throws a little curve ball but it’s nothing you can’t handle. At least that’s what I tell myself.

First of all:

Meet Mason:

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Born at 6 pounds and 19 inches of pure sugar, this little guy for sure brightens our world.

Here are my confessions as a brand new ( second time) mom:

“Sleep when the baby sleeps” no longer pertains to my life. When people tell me to try and sleep when the baby sleeps, I laugh a little because there is so much less sleep with a toddler and a newborn. My first born, Jacob, has been thrown into a complete sleep regression and is waking up in the middle of the night and is WIDE awake at or before 5 AM ( We are working on that).

Our house has become a disaster area. While i’m feeding Mason, Jacob, plays carelessly with all of his toys. He brings toy after toy out and plays like it’s the first time he has seen it. I am lucky that Jacob can occupy himself and play for HOURS but the house becomes a wreck in about 2 minutes.

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The anxiety has been worse for me this time around. For some reason, the first week we were home with Mason, I was a huge ball of nerves. It’s like I thought I was going to break him or something. We survived. Each week has gotten better with the anxiety and we are only on week three.

The pressure to nurse is so strong. I nursed for a few days and pumped for a few weeks but now we are purely on formula. I truly believe that fed is best. I am PRO breast feeding and PRO formula feeding. It’s what’s best for your family. What I don’t like is when people ask you tons of questions about why or why you aren’t nursing or when people judge you either way! Women should feel comfortable nursing OR bottle feeding in public without being judged, especially by other moms.

I haven’t left the house since Mason was born but only a handful of times. It doesn’t help that the weather is so cold right now, it feels like antarctica outside but also the thought of going out with my two boys alone is so daunting. We will get there but for now I am staying in my fuzzy christmas socks and maternity leggings until it gets a tad warmer.

Speaking of maternity pants, lets talk baby weight. I am one of the lucky ones that fat likes to stick to me when I am pregnant. It’s going to take some time, but I will get this baby weight off. I like doing Weight Watchers because it holds me accountable. I’ve already started tracking points and working on figuring out the new “freestyle” plan. Weight Watchers is good for me because it helps with portion control also. I can’t wait to start working out after I get approved by Doc at my six week appointment. I want to start by walking and doing a mixture of the beach body workouts.

I could go on and on with my confessions but here is some advice especially if you are a new mom or a new mom of two:

-Take care of yourself- take that long shower, drink the glass of wine, eat the piece of chocolate. Those first few weeks and months of motherhood you are purely in survival mode.

– Its OKAY if your first born watches some TV. Sometimes TV is the only way I can get a second to do something. No it’s not a babysitter but if it distracts my toddler for 3 minutes, i’ll take it!

– Give your first born a few more hugs, snuggles and a little more patience. They are going through a lot too.

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– Love on your partner. If you are as lucky as me and you have someone who is there by your side every step of the way, a simple thank you and I love you goes a long way.

One more confession, while my new life with a toddler and newborn may be really hard right now, I wouldn’t change a thing. The love I have for these two boys of mine outweigh any diaper blow outs or toddler temper tantrums. Seeing them together melts my heart.

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XOXO,

Four Letter Word- #!?$

Fear can completely cripple you, deprive you of happiness, and keep you from going after your hopes and dreams. Not only that, but did you know that fear can make you physically sick?

Each time you feel fear, it triggers something called the “fight-or-flight” stress response in your body. If there is a cumulative buildup of the stress hormone, it can lead to disorders in our automatic nervous system. This can cause IBS, headaches, high blood pressure, etc. I don’t know about you but this makes me afraid of fear! How is that even possible?

The time that I feel the most fearful is at night, right before I fall asleep. Sometimes I can lay there and the thoughts of my deepest fears creep to the surface. It’s not the darkness that causes this fear, it’s the silence of the night. When I start to worry and let the fear come in, that’s when I start praying. I pray that my husband comes home safely after his shift, I pray for my son, I pray for my family members and friends, I pray for peace. If all else fails, I turn on Nick at Night and watch episodes of Full House, Friends and Fresh Prince of Bel Air until I drift off into sleep.

I like to call fear a four letter word because I tend to make situations ten times worse in my mind because of it. I can get myself all in a tizzy worrying about things that are out of my control. What I’ve realized is that most of the time you just have to let go and let God take care of you. Let your faith carry you.

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Happy Monday Y’all!

xoxo,

Lauren

My New Normal

I always knew that when I became a parent my life would completely change forever. I didn’t really know what to expect until I was fully in it though. You forget your old ways and habits and create new ones. I have most definitely created a new normal for my life.

The old me would roll out of bed by 7 am to be at work at 8 am or so. Now I wake up to the cutest alarm clock at about 5 am. The old me would cry, complain and beg for just 5 more minutes of sleep. Now I cry and beg for just 5 more minutes with Jacob. Don’t get me wrong, 5 am does come way too early sometimes but to say it’s worth it would be an understatement. The early mornings are seriously my favorite part of the day.

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When I found out that I was pregnant, I was more worried about life with a newborn than I was the actual birth process. What I didn’t know was that natural instinct truly is a real thing. People told me all the time that it would just come natural to me and they were right. The old me was scared to even touch a newborn, or any baby really. I was scared I would break them.  I got the hang of this momma thing pretty early on. #gome

Seeing Brian interact with Jacob is the sweetest thing ever. The old me thought I loved Brian then but now seeing him with our son has made me fall in love with him all over again. He doesn’t have to work hard to make his “mini me” smile. He is a great role model and daddy for our son. I just had to brag about him. P.S. — Every time Jacob sneezes, Brian says “ oooo Goodness” and for some reason I think it’s the cutest thing ever.

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Baby weight. No, I’m not talking about the sweet chubbiness of Jacob (he is becoming more chunky every day). I am talking about the extra chubbiness of his momma. I know it took 9 months to put on this weight but dang I wish it would have magically fallen off my body once Jacob came into this world. Two hundred thousand percent worth it though and I am always a work in progress. Weight has been something that I have constantly battled and I know I will for the rest of my life. I have some experience in gaining and LOSING a lot of weight, so I know it will come off with time and work.

Having a new tiny human in our world has added so much joy to our lives. It has also added a LOT of stuff. Each room in our house has a little trail of things that remind me of Jacob. A blanket here, a boppy pillow there, a cute little single sock laying on the floor, bottles in the sink, and a burp cloth by our bed reminds me every second of how lucky we really are to have this miracle in our lives.

I cannot imagine my life any different. Yes we have our moments of brief frustration and feelings of “this is parenting thing hard” but I wouldn’t change a thing. I love being Jacobs’s momma and I just had to tell the whole wide world.

Happy weekend! 🙂

XOXO,

Lauren

Nobody Can Change Me but Me

I know I’ve said this before but lately I’ve been feeling like I’m slipping. But really… It’s almost been like i am sinking back into the old me, where I feel like I can eat whatever I want and not be active at all. I know i can’t do that to my body.

Ever have those few months where you feel completely unmotivated and out of control? Well that has been the story of my life lately. After weeks and months of beating myself up, the other day I finally had a glimmer of motivation. I realized once again that nobody can change me but me.

It’s not about being on a diet, it’s about a lifestyle change. It’s something I’m going to be dealing with for my entire life. I’ve said this many times before as well, it’s about jumping right back on it. When you feel yourself falling back into bad habits, just take one step at a time. Don’t be like me and beat yourself up about it!

Here is a little bit of motivation to get you through the rest of this week:

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XOXO!

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